September, what a phenomenal month it has been so far. I started a great project in work a month ago and being on this project has been so fulfilling. I have learnt a lot, programmed in new programming languages, felt encouraged and most of all - loved working with my new colleagues. I feel like I am starting to bring some of my experience as I think of ways that things could be made more efficient (I am collecting so many ideas) and also contribute any knowledge of past experiences that I bring from previous projects. My creativity this month is flowing from me like a river and I am enjoying it.
I am also taking certificates in work that contain a lot of information about processes. I am enjoying reading them and wow have I learnt a lot of new vocabulary as a result. Who knew when I started learning German that for every 1 word in English there are about 3 or 4 in German. For example, I want to use the verb ‘to use’, well the thing with German is that it is very precise and I am guilty of not knowing the exact word in particular contexts yet (Growth mindset remember - I am always growing and so what I was yesterday is not what I know today!) So for now I switch between the verbs verwenden, benutzen, nutzen, gebrauchen, ausführen und anwenden. Yes, there are that many regarding only one single verb. You can imagine working in German a bit like a mix of studying German, programming, people and also the processes of a new company as a bit of an adventure. I find it thrilling.
I am also settling into a great structure with good habits during the week in which morning activities are filled with early morning stretches followed by a good breakfast and affirmations to start the day off to a great start. I feel so settled and relaxed as a result and thus more productive. I have also come back to my true self with a relaxed focused feel throughout the day. I notice tension that I carried previously in my stomach that I have let go of and as a result a lot of my stomach has healed which I am thankful for especially as the stomach contains 90% serotonin production - yes 90% of a happy chemical so when your stomach is off - you’re off and this is also why people are happy when they are eating good food.
Now onto something else that has been amazing this September, I’ve been away for a few days in Denmark to celebrate a friend’s wedding and wow was it more romantic than I expected it to be. She (the bride) had prefaced the wedding with the fact that it was in an office and not such a big deal but the fact that they chose to be together in these times is the most romantic thing. Regardless of your views on marriage or otherwise, this is the premise of any couple being together - when they have the freedom to make a choice to stay together each and everyday through the hard times like a (like a is a very Irish way of saying - for example) family member passing or the ecstatic times of travelling together and jumping into the sea together and having amazing fun filled adventures camping. The premise of any good relationship is freedom of choice. They are both coming to the table as 100% whole, worthy and complete individuals staring into each other’s eyes enhancing the other person’s life, admiring the other’s journey that is life and also supporting the other where perhaps the other person feels less than worthy with something outside of themselves like a goal to be accomplished. Supporting the other person while knowing that they are well and truly worthy of accomplishing anything they want to and even if they don’t that it’s okay because you still love them regardless - you will be there as there staple, their guide, their shining light to remind them that yes, they can do whatever they want they have that choice.
Speaking of September, it was also my parent’s 50th Wedding anniversary and they have created a family of 5 beautiful individuals that each own their own paths. We are similar in so many ways and yet so extremely different in other views that it’s hard to see how we are related. I, myself, love computers, documentaries, hiking, sports and I would have been the sporty tomboy in the family growing up with a pink BabyG sports watch which has now upgraded in later years to a Garmin Vivoactive 3 (not pink though - they don’t do it in any other colour than black as standard BOO Garmin - also pink used to be a boy’s colour showing how bold and strong they were!). To keep the balance I still enjoyed some eccentric colours and at the same time wore sports clothes most of my life. Fashion in that sense is not my forté! I am the one to buy random quality clothing and put it together thinking it’s fine but the pieces that I do buy are investments. On the other side, I am not a lover of shopping (except outdoor and tech shops of course!). Both fashion and shopping are my sister’s strengths but not mine! I can cook but it’s a utility game and I afford the time to put in for my body’s sake not for the want or liking of it - although over the years I have grown to enjoy it more as I’ve picked up more skills and I have been known to do cooking courses. One of which I have already signed up for! In saying all of this, yes, we, myself and my sisters, are like chalk and cheese and at the same time still Mc Namara’s and still at heart a blend of my Mom and Dad. We are all grown up and choose our own ideals and values now so while we might disagree on some things, we still come together to celebrate large occasions and yes we do go all out for it. We have a common theme throughout like being generous, dressing up and feeling so incredibly lucky that all of us are connected.
September is also a time where people are starting new things or coming back to start things again and leaving behind old things. For me, it was already a few months since I’ve been out and about for a hike. I am lucky I also got to go hiking with some of my favourite people here in Germany and I got to visit some of the most beautiful spots here. The views are incredible and sometimes I need to pinch myself that I am here, I get to do the things I love and I am also healthy. Without the bad you do not appreciate the good - say that again - without darkness there is not light - so I appreciate my health so much more now than ever and having a body that can still visit and hike with the people that I love. September isn’t even over yet and I still get to have another amazing fun-filled weekend to come this weekend.
There is so much to be appreciative of for the journey that we are on. Perhaps the discipline that I have getting up early and having a ritualistic morning lighting a candle while enjoying a healthy warm breakfast has made me appreciate this life even more. I can say that last September I did my first triathlon and the person I knew then who was having so much fun and enjoying life didn’t know how much more content she could be as she is now. Isn’t it funny when you can look back and see how much more relaxed and happy you could be and really find a happy place?
The things I’ve realised this year are pretty simple - the more relaxed I am, the more I can do, love, be and achieve. This has been the thread throughout my life. I won’t go on about that too much, how being relaxed and achieving goals faster go hand in hand but I will say - thank you September 2020. It’s now time to start into Autumn and I am awakened to all the good things that are coming down the road.
I did a writing exercise this month - write in the present tense as if you were at the end of your life now recounting everything. What a fantastic exercise! I can already at this young age say that I have loved with all my heart, experienced the lows and the highs and know that I am ready for whatever comes up in the future. I am ready because I have faith in myself now that if I relax, all is well, all that comes my way is all part and parcel of the journey and I am happier than ever. Disclaimer from last year - I can say that I had some of the tools I have now but implementing them on top of stuff bothering you isn’t implementing them - the cookie will crumble without the right glue that sticks it together and I am so grateful and happy that I know that now! I now have a deep genuine contentment with life so I am happy for all the highs and lows.
You can live through whatever life throws and you and have faith knowing you can handle the next thing, there is almost a calmness that comes with that. You can either be the bottle of water or a bottle of sparkling water. If you shake the bottle of water, when you open it, it is still calm or you can be the sparkling water and when you shake it and open it, it explodes. You can choose to express yourself in life or bottle it up and explode. Now I can handle whatever comes my way, I love it, I love life. Like I said, without the bad stuff, you don’t appreciate the good - without winter, you wouldn’t appreciate summer so much - so enjoy the process and cycles of ups and downs, highs and lows - nothing is forever - live in the moment and enjoy the journey. It’s a good one. Happy rest of September 2020 :-D